I got to see my aunt this evening!

The one that a few months ago I thought I may not see again this side of Heaven!  But I have and have every reason to believe I will again!  And she's normal - no mental craziness!  Still dealing with the cancer, but overall doing well!  So thankful to get to see her and my uncle this evening!

I have to admit though, I kind of had prepare myself a bit for this.  Maybe it sounds selfish, but over the past many months, I had prepared myself to lose my aunt - and even hoped that it would come quickly during the time of the extreme mental issues she had.  Now here I was getting ready to go to dinner with them - but without my mom.  I wasn't prepared for that switch.  It is hard to explain or even rationalize those feelings.  On one hand so thankful and so grateful!  And on the other hand, confused maybe?  Hurt?  I'm not even quite sure....  Maybe it is normal sort of though.  I've been through times of grief combined with times of joy before.  I remember finding out I was pregnant with DS (our first) about 3 weeks after I lost a beloved cat to sudden illness.  I remember that combination of thoughts and emotions being kind of strange and confusing too.

One thing I do know is that even though it may hurt at the same time, I am so thankful for what God has done in my aunt and for being able to actually spend time with her tonight!